Monday, March 27, 2006

neuronews

I've been undergoing some new treatments for the side effects of Parkinsons Disease and I[m happy to report that for the first time in years I'm able to hold my head erect and my neck isn't twisted with dystonia anymore and is getting better. Still a ways to go yet, but now I see a glimmer of hope fof leading a relatively normal life in my future.

Friday, March 10, 2006

Apologia


My head's baack on staight. Thanks Marion and Shirfey, from the tops of the world.

Wednesday, March 08, 2006

process


All artists talk about their process or at least think about talking about it. What gets incorporated into the process? Everything, I think. e.g. fr the first time since I was diagnosed with Parkinsons Disease, thoughts of suicide (they'r not too serious at this point and probably wont be, but they have surfaced. so now I must face them). the highest suicide rate of this type is among men with parkinsons. How can one explain this. Imagine that you are looking out on a world that seems and looks the ssme as it always has but then stand outside yourself and see what others are seeing. To your horror, you discover that you no longer look familiar, your facial muscles dont work, when you talk, even your own mother can't understand you, and suddenly you see it in their eyes. They csan no longer face you, they pretend it isnt happenng and there you are, trappped inside a body that is no longer your own, and the UNBEARABLE LIGHTGNESS OF BEING closes in on you, and suicide , a word you couldnt spell before, comes up, then sinks away if you just let it pass. But the silence is hard, and difficult but you endure it and go on.

Sunday, March 05, 2006

quantum mechanics III



This small image, a tile created from a photo of a bit of rustic stonework was the beginning image which layered upon itself, turned, manipulated and colored rendered the next print in this series.

Saturday, March 04, 2006

Response to Marion's inquiry about Process

You mean I'm supposed to think? Gosh, I'd been thinking about the incredible beauty, and simplicity of Quantum Physics which I am told is everything Einstein forgot to include in his theories. Yet, I dont really understand it completely. It has a quality that speaks to the well of my creativity, but does not explain itself. I started with drawing some random lines with a paint tool, then I added some gradent coloring and layer blending. I work in direct reponse to what is happening on the screen just as I do when working on cloth or canvas. It really isn't any different except for the tactile qualities of the real vs virtual media. The wonderful thing about the digital medium is that I can go back to an earlier version if I don't like the finish point determined by what pathway I take and the choices are myriad. This cannot be done when working with real media. I'll think some more and maybe do a blog later on it.

quantum theory 2

Thursday, March 02, 2006

Quantum Theory

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Kundera

The book that has had the most profound effect on me is THE UNBEARABLE LIGHTNESS OF BEING by Kundera. It is a small book, but the narrative is compelling. To be honest, its one of those booka I don't completely understand on the intellectual level but emoti9nally it strikes home. Being a residegt of the US, I would be dishoenst to say that I have been engaged by the zeitgeist that seized the writer of this book. We US citizens have been so sheltered and so dishonest as to our engagement with the pressing philosophiccsal issues of the day. But that is our karma and time will teach us otherwise. I remember the utter shock on the utter shock displayed on the face of a friend, who loved European Phiosohpy, as she called it, when Sartre renounced Existtennstialism for Marxism I don't think she's ever recovered. I hhink I shall have to read this book again.

Arashi
Surface Design
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